Wednesday, September 2, 2009

How do I start this post? Where do I begin?

I guess by first Praising the Lord for what He has done and is doing in my life. If you have read my notes on the book "Lord, I want to be Whole", by Stormie Omartian then you know that I am on a journey to becoming Whole. There is deep wounds that I didn't realize I had from my past that has caused me in areas to not be Whole according to His will and crippled me from being who the Lord desires me to be. I praise the Lord that He is working in me and revealing these things to me so that I may forgive what needs to be forgiven and release the grip that keeps me from being all that He calls me to be.

A few days ago was a struggle for me. I was tempted in the area that I am most weak in and unfortuntaly I gave in to that temptation. I gave in to my "feelings" of failure and giving up. Feelings that I will never be who the Lord desires me to be. Feelings that my goal in life for me and my marriage was never going to be a reality. But I praise the Lord that He kept me save and has provided a husband that will never let me fully give into those feelings. Even in the mist of his own struggles and temptation to give in, the Lord gave him the strength to lift me and our marriage up to Him. Praise the Lord that He is faithful in His Word.

He restores my soul. Psalm 23:3

As I read over my notes I come across the verse in Isaiah 43:18-19

Do not remember the former things, nor consider the things of old. Behold, I will do a new thing; now it shall spring forth; shall you not know it?

It has been my struggle since that night to jump back on the journey. I have felt unforgiving of myself for my struggles but Praise the Lord that after I confess (1 John 1:8-9) He was faithful and just. Not only to forgive me but make me new. I am not to dwell in the old. The Lord is making me new!

Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation; old things have passed away; behold, all things have become new.
2 Corinthians 5:17

So I end by asking fellow Christians to pray for me and my struggles. Pray for my dear husband as he leads us in the right direction. Pray that the Lord continues to work in both of us and in our marriage. Pray that we are obedient to Him and all that His Word says. Thank you Christians and Praise the Lord for His unwavering faithfulness.

Thank You,

1 comment:

  1. Trust me, I understand the feeling! Marriage is hard - especially with all of the baggage we bring with us. I try to keep in mind the verse which says, "a righteous man falls seven times, but gets back up again." (sorry, I don't have the exact words here.) Anyhow, I know I struggle with my anger, which is certainly an issue from my past. God is so good to forgive over and over. I love the saying that if His grace wasn't sufficient, the cross was in vain. What a promise! I have seen Him working in my life, especially in the past year, to change and conform me into His image. It's always a bit discouraging to see what you want to be, and how far you are from that, but praise God, we aren't where we were!

    You have done a very nice job on this blog. Thank you for sharing things with us. It makes me feel like I am getting to know you better. Wish you lived closer. I will be praying for you guys! Love you!